Hati

Sumber: Koleksi peribadi

Disaat cuba memberikan yang terbaik,

Semakin banyak kejian, kutukan, dan cacian yang dibalas.

Ya Allah,

Adakah ini balasan terhadap dosa-dosa yang lalu?

Atau,

Adakah ini ujian dunia yang perlu dihadapi?

Bukan ganjaran ataupun balasan yang dipinta,

Tetapi,

Sekurang-kurangnya belajarlah menghargai susah payah seseorang,

Hati hanya mampu menangis kerana kesakitan yang mendalam.

Ya Allah,

Jika ini adalah balasan kerana dosa-dosa yang lalu,

Ampunkanlah dosa-dosa tersebut.

Ya Allah,

Jika ini adalah ujian di dunia,

Tabahkanlah hati untuk menghadapi ujian ini.

Hati berkata,

“Kita selalu fikir tentang orang lain, 
tetapi adakah orang lain fikir tentang kita?”

Astargfirullah Hal Azim, tidak sepatutnya hati berkata begitu,

Tetapi hati sudah tidak tahan,

Hati semakin nekad untuk tidak memikirkan orang lain,

Hati seringkali berkata,

“Kita selalu fikir tentang orang lain, 
tetapi adakah orang lain fikir tentang kita?”

Hari demi hari berlalu,

Semakin banyak hati-hati yang lain sakit,

Kerana mulut yang terlalu pentingkan diri.

Hari demi hari berlalu,

Semakin banyak menyusahkan orang,

Kerana hati yang terlalu pentingkan diri.

Ya Allah,

Bukan niat di hati untuk melakukan sedemikian,

Tetapi,

Hati terlalu sakit dan nekad.

I Miss Myself

 

(Image source : personal collection in my lappy)

I used to hate myself,

But now,

I'm missing it.

I used to feel useless in life,

But now,

I’m missing it.

I used to be feeling not accepted by people,

But now,

I’m missing it.

I used to be like a toy to some people,

But now,

I’m missing it.

I used to be needed when necessary,

But now,

I’m missing it.

I used to feel very jealous to some people,

But now,

I’m missing it.

I used to trying to be a good person before,

But now,

I’m missing it.

I used to trying to be myself,

But now,

I’m missing it.

I miss my own self before,

I miss my attitude before,

I miss my feeling before,

I miss my own experience,

I miss everything so much.

Now, I’m a different person,

I’m trying to love my own self,

But, I’m still missing what I used to be,

I miss myself …

written by: myself (19 August 2011 - 7.17 a.am) at Aman Jaya, Sungai Petani

p/s: sorry if there are any grammatical mistake .. plz inform me about the mistake in this post comment ya.. thank you =)

Different

minta maaf sebab lama x blogwalking...maybe busy kot..ntah la,
insyaAllah jejak2 korang akn dibalas...(bergantung kepada mood).. =)

(Mood broken English pulak..ske hati korang la nak gelak sebab broken..but at least i'm trying ok?)

This year, I want to be a different person. It will never be the same than before this. I'm 20 years old this year.....I'm not a teenager anymore. I need to change and not be a childish person anymore. I really need spirits and supports from myself and everyone around me. Pray for me. Hopefully, all my wishes for this year will become true. Amin...Ya Rabbal Alamin...

Yes, I know that I'm week in Arabic Language. So, I need to improve my vocabulary. I'm pretty sure that all of you realize that before this post, there are 2 post about music in Arabic Language. Yes, in this month (January 2011), I keep listening to Arabic songs. I felt entertained and it made me really want to search(google) for its meaning. Because of this, I keep improving my Arabic vocab even in Ammiyah Arabic(not Fasohah). But, who cares? Right? Moreover, my younger brother is currently studying in Dentistry at Al-Azhar University,Cairo,Egypt. So, I can imagine what he always talking about and what kind of Arabic he use to communicate there.

I love English Language and like to speak in English (even in broken English) because of music too. When we get entertained from the songs, we become more interested to learn the language from the song. I'm not interested in formality such as reading books and article. How bored it is when we just sit and read.

Early in this year, I've made the biggest sacrify in my life. I never thought that I'm going to make it. But, because of my aunt always motivate and support me and Alhamdulillah ,I realized that there is little bit change in myself. Even my friends told me that I'm look different than before. And I'm happy to hear it. InsyaAllah, I will continue it and I strongly believe that ISTIQAMAH IS THE KEY TO SUCCESS.